(Hebrew 6:9)
You know that feeling—a pin and needles. As I first step on the other country to work as a domestic helper, I was at the right age to work but because of ignorance on things makes me anxious. I grew up in the village and life is just simple. Working on the modern city houses is so new and weird for me. I don’t know how to operate those modern electric stuff. Months of training still not helpful for me. The moment I decided to left my awesome country life and move to the big city, I felt my life is drowning. It’s like a ship sinking on the pacific ocean, no one knows what my life gonna be in that big city.
I was pursuing a dream for my siblings—a good future for them. Have to finish university and gonna have a good stable job. And as well building a nice farm house. So I set up and sail to a big wide world to find a job that can help me materialise my dream. A smart sailor always be ready for his voyage but me I’m not. A sailor needs sailing boat, a sailing gloves, marine binoculars, waterproof bags, compass, a map, hammock and a coffee maker. Oh well we need to make sure we can sleep well and have a good morning coffee on our journey!
It’s gonna be a very hard journey for me but I am already determined to compromise my happiness for the sake of my family. My ship started its journey, first it was cool, nice and peaceful. But as it passed to the middle of the ocean the big waves started to rock my ship. It was so hard for me to adjust on my new employers house. Everything is so new to me, it’s like my world is rocking. Days and nights pass by, I start to adjust to that new environment. My sailing journey goes smoothly. I do have a lot of problems that keeps coming to my life while working on foreign countries. Most of them I can’t believe that I can survive. Storms comes one at time on my journey, it was very hard to keep my ship steady as I battled the strong wind and waves. The waves is like a angry sea monster trying to swallow my loneliness and homesickness fighting deep inside me. I’m trying to fight it, praying and perseverance helps me to go on. Sailing alone was so lonesome thing. Some left good memories, some are so bad that I don’t even want to recall. But problems and bad times helps me to grow stronger. My experience gives me lots of wisdom to deal those difficult times I encounter now and in the years to come. As I sail to the big wide ocean and arm with my wisdom to deal with storms to come to hinder my journey, I know i can deal with it. I don’t want to walk away from the sea it’s my life, big ocean gives me the opportunity to explore and enjoy life.